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My Dream, my fuTure - sounds like a National Day slogan.
1. I want to be myself. 2. I want to be what my heart tells me. 3. I want to get a good education and land a challenging job. 4. I want my loved ones to be healthy and happy. 5. I want to be at the place where happiness and tranquaility could be found.+ breathtaking scenary!!! Switzerland and CowSplace Thats my dream for now at least. The future is too far to be seen... The Peace In You - Simple it may sound, Difficult it may be...to me at least To find the peace in you is to be comfortable of who you really are. This process of self discovery is an ardous and winding journey for me. Many a times, I was befundled by this simple yet complicated question of who you actually are. Are you determined by the frenzs around u? Are you who you really are? Is sociey and peer pressure "constructing" u? To a certain extent and no doubt. the answer is yes. But are you living for urself or for others? are you achieving some things for yourself or cause of others? Are you following what others are doing so as to go with the flow? Well for me, the answer is more of a No than a yes which means I live for myself. I am not one that is easily influenced by others cause I have faith in myself and lots of self belief! heh..u wan? but not to the extent of ignoring what others think. A balance must be struck. For me, I would take in all opinions and considerations but however the ultimate decision lies with me and never with the flow. Modesty is a virtue! 1. Dun think by just speaking a few english words -------->>> you are highly educated 2. Dun think by just wearing a shawl and walking around Esplanade ------------->>>> you are sophisicated 3. Dun think by just speaking slang in front of gals while speaking to guys in broken english -------->>> you are highly desirable 4. Lastly dun make me puke cause your actions are disgusting! Heh..I have split personality! One moment can be so himbolicious and the next can be so philosophical!! till den..ciao need to catch up on my dear slp.......yay!!! Lost - the feeling Im afraid of Its been a long long while since i had this feeling. The fear of losing someone so dear to me, the fear of someone going to somewhere far far away, the fear of nv seeing someone again. All these came back to me last night and what a long and traumatic night. The previous time was 12 yrs ago when i lost my god father due to cancer. This time round was my grandma. She had difficulty breathing and was panting very heavily. She insisted that she was alright while everyone could tell she wasnt..She slipped in and out of conscious and my heart broke when I saw her so thin and wobbly. The worst was that she did not know what was happening around her. She was still fine and well early the week when we attended a dinner together. Of all my cousins, she doted me the most as she took care of me during my childhood years when my parents were working. She is v obstinate but she would only listen to my dad, one of my uncle and me. the rest she would turn a deaf ear to. I insisted she to be admitted to hospital and chided my uncles for carrying her the wrong way down the stairs.hEy, Im qualified k.heh but they wont let me. the expression on her face was haix she was in deep pain and agony but she wouldnt voice it out. I really adore and admire my grandma for her courage and toughness. she single handedly brought up 8 children as my grandpa passed away at a v young age. She went through lots of hardship. My emotions overwhelmed me on the way to the hospital. I held her hands real tight. I dun wan to lose her. I told her to be strong. the past flooded my mind - the way she took care of me while im young. Although its 2 decades ago heh..but its still vivid in my mind. The way she took care of me while I was put under GE for my operation. She must be sleeping now - just visited her. she appeared much better and I hope she could hear my wishes for her. Her birthday is this sunday. hope she gets well enough to celebrate it..*pray* Treasure those around you - old fashion it may sound, meaningful it may be Intellectual Metrosexual Himbo - thAts wAt I wAn to bE!! "Everybody should love themselves like a princess cause everyone is beautiful..." how true can that be from my idol Paris Hilton but who else...I think she is beautiful cause of her overwhelming self confidence and I truly believe it a confident person is an attractive person..oh no i wAn Paris Hilton Sheer >.-...wahaha All the while I never thought I could be fake till the temp job I am currently doing. ''Thank you for calling, have a nice day. Goodbye..." this just rant off my mouth like an answering machine..of cause this could never be sincere as you have to say this to every member irregardless of their xxxxxxxxx attitude....I believe in being truthful to yourself and others so its actually a revelation that I could actually do that! heh... till den..ciao! *yawn* my 2nd attempt in blogging! my interest is kinda rekindled but maybe only momentarily! oh my the first was an ultimate disaster! i could not believe that i actually chronically write my everyday ordinary happenings..its so boring! i wont bear to read it much lest other people. Its so unlike me cause i hate to account to anyone... customer service officer, now i understand ur difficulties and the abuses hurled at u, the scoldings and unruly customers that think that the whole wide world owed them a living...wat a joke! the mentally unsound just like me..and of cos the stupid old man! i wont forget u..puiz haha anyway after incident, i would be able to react with it happens again. I think these 3 lines would be more than sufficient to irritate those bastards! oops...heh 1. Sorry, sir. Please do not use any personal remarks on me. 2. Sorry, sir. If u continue I would have to hang up the call. 3. Sorry sir. Thank you for calling, have a nice day. Goodbye du...................du............du................hahahhahhahaha its so dammm cool....till den heh *yawn* |
| Name: aLvIn lOvEs cHipMunkS Age: 22 Likes: me, myself and I.. Dislikes: fakers plus schemers plus hypocrites! exterminate them all..heh Archives: June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 January 2006 |
